The ADD Transformation
by Carl F.
(Toronto, Ontario, Canada)
At the age of 36, I walked through the doors of John Schurmann's office to seek help for another life problem I was having. I've been to many counsellors, psychiatrists, psychologists and psychotherapists over the years to seek treatment for whatever issue I felt was causing me the most trouble at the time. As a result, I received several diagnoses for my problems: depression, alcoholism, OCD, sex addiction. And although I received treatment for most of these "disorders" nothing seemed to work.
After a bad experience with anti-depressant medication, I vowed I would never take medication again. I still felt, depressed, lonely, exhausted and hopeless. I hated myself for being angry all the time, for feeling awkward in social situations, for being needy in relationships and for relying on chemicals to make me feel better. I was angry that I wasn't able to achieve the level of education that I needed to pursue the career of my choice. I was bitter that it seemed so hard for me to learn new things. I had lost all hope that I would ever be the person I wanted to be or live the life I wanted to live.
I had no idea that the problems I was having were in any way related to ADD or had I even considered that I may have it. John put me through a series of tests which indicated that I had all the symptoms of ADD. John also encouraged me to educate myself on ADD through reading articles and books. Through this self-education process, I found myself relating to everything that I was reading. It was a no-brainer, I have ADD! At first I was
devastated. Looking back I discovered that I had ADD all along and had been struggling to live a "normal" life for so many years, unaware of this condition. I felt like this diagnosis was a life-sentence of pain and misery. I had struggled and would continue to struggle for years to come.
Fortunately, John soon helped me realize that having ADD was a gift. That many people with ADD are intelligent, creative and charismatic. Through working with John, I realized that in-spite of having ADD (without treatment), I had achieved so much. At the very least, I could finally put a name to the condition that has been affecting every aspect of my life for 36 years.
With this knowledge, I could now begin treatment. Although this involved medication, I felt I had nothing to lose in giving it a try. I began taking stimulant medication under the supervision of a doctor and continued my regular sessions with John. The transformation since has been nothing short of amazing. My productivity at work has improved due to an increased ability to focus. The mental energy I now have has allowed me to be more attentive to my family and friends. The area where I've seen the most improvement has been in my mood and self-image. I'm generally positive and feel good about myself. I am beginning to enjoy being around people and do not feel awkward or out of place in social settings. I am trying and learning new things that I did not think were possible before. I am finally hopeful about my future and the things I can achieve. I hope others will soon realize the gift of ADD!